Day 7 - Someone who has made my life worth living...

Day 7 - Someone who has made my life worth livig - Wow, I have been so lucky in this aspect. I have so many wonderful people that make my life a joy, of course the hubster, my grandies and all my amazing friends. However, the first thing that came to my mind when I read this question was a time in my life when I was very sick. I was 24 weeks pregnant with my third baby (back then babies born that early very rarely survived). My stomach became very hard and painful so I went to the hospital to find out that I had something call Abruptio Placenta. When the doctor told me that they had to take the baby now or I may not make it, the first thing that came to my mind were my two kids that I already had and how awful it would be to miss them growing up for both them and myself. I knew I had to live for them. They have both made my life unbelievable, I am so thankful that I have been given such great gifts in the two of them. I am truly the luckiest mom in the world.

Until later,
Hugs,
Shelly

Day 6...

Something I hope I never have to do in my life. This one is so simple. I hope I never have to bury my hubster or one of my children. I had a stillborn baby girl many years ago and every once in awhile it still hits me. If I am watching something on T.V. or reading somethng it could be a trigger and I begin sobbing completely unexpectedly. I feel so sorry for friends of mine who have lost loved ones and I really just don't know how they move forward. I admire thier strength but I really don't think that I have it.

Until later,
Hugs,
Shelly

Day 5...

So life got in the way and I am really behind on these 30 Days of Truth, but what do you do? You pick up and continue, right? So here goes:

Day 5- Something I hope to do in my life-
Wow this one is so hard, there are so many things. This is going to sound so lame but it really is something I want do. I want to take the hubster to Universal Studios and Disney Land!! I know it seems so unimportant, but he has never been and he is 50!! I think it would be a blast to experience it with him!!

I feel like I should say something like inventing world peace but I am supposed to be honest right?

Until later,
Hugs,
Shelly

My Kitchen has been featured...

I am so excited!! My little kitchen backsplash redo was featured over at Luxe Boulevard It is such an honor and feels so great when someone appreciates your hard work!! Thank you so much Stephanie! By the way her blog is awesome so you should head on over and check it out!

Until later,
Hugs,
Shelly

Family....

My extended family is having some major issues and causing me serious stress. If I don't post please understand it is because I am trying to deal. Love to you all.

Until later,
Hugs,
Shelly

Day 4-someone I need to forgive, you know this one is tough, I was raised to believe in forgiveness and I truly fell like I have forgiven everyone that has ever wronged me and I have to say there have not been many. Forgetting, now that is another story haha, lol!

Until later,
Hugs,
Shelly

Day 3...Somethng I have to forgive myself for... Wow this one is so hard there are a couple things, I just don't know which one to write about. Okay here goes - First of all I have to say I am not meaning any disrespect at all to the person I am writing about, he truly was one of my best friends.
In June of 2007 my ex-husband, who was a very good father but also a very bad alcoholic got physical with our son. In all honesty while looking back I think he was probably in a black out because he absolutely adored his children and would never in a million years intentionally hurt them. Anyway, he called me on the phone to tell me his side of what had happened and it became very clear very quick that he was very drunk. He asked to talk to his son and started telling him that everything he owned would now be his and threatening suicide. I have to tell you that this is something he threatened many times in his lifetime so I didn't take it as serious as I should have. The next morning at a few minutes after 7:00 a.m. he called dispatch and told them that he was going to shoot himself and that he wanted the officers to come quickly so that his children would not find his body, he hung up the phone and he took his life. I wish I would have called the police the night before, because I didn't my kids don't have thier dad. I have learned that if someone threatens suicide one time or a hundred times, take them seriously. I need to forgive myself for not calling the police or his wife. I did call his mother but that is another story I will probably never tell. I miss him and his kids miss him more.
I am sorry this is so heavy.

Until later,
Hugs,
Shelly

30 day truth challenge...

Day 2..What do I like about myself? hmmm, thats a toughy, I think the one thing I really like about myself is my laugh. My laugh is one of those big,loud laughs! It is actually kind of funny because most people don't expect it and it startles them. My kids mimic me and make fun, but I know that they actually love my laugh too!!

Until later,
Hugs,
Shelly

30 days of truth...

Ok here goes day one, first truth...
Something I hate about myself, hmmm I think when I was younger I may have had many things that I hated about myself but as I have grown older and wiser I have learned that everything about me is essential to make me the person I am today and honestly I think I am a good person. I like me and I think most people like me. However, there is one thing I really, really hate about me and that is my migraines.

I hate that I get them and I hate that I have had to claim ownership of them as if they are some prized possession!! Ugghhh! I started getting these lovely headaches as a teenager, I was constantly downing ibuprofen, asprin, tylenol, anything I could get my hands on to try to ease the pain. My parents really didn't get it they used to say I just liked medicines. Really?, who likes those kinds of medicines. Anyway, there have been times when I have headaches every single day, sometimes so bad that they lead to an anxiety attack. I become frightened that they are something more even though I know rationally that they are not. I have been to many doctors and tried many different medications, even becoming dependant on one (don't worry I am off that now). So now I am at a point in my life were I am doing alot of contemplating on my quality of life. I really love my life, I have a great job, a great family and great friends but the migraines do take over at times and it really just ticks me off!! They do affect my quality of life, there are days of work missed and family time interupted and frankly I am not okay with that. So there you have it in a nutshell, what I hate about me. Depressing huh? If anyone has any ideas I am always willing to listen and take advice.

Until later,
Hugs,
Shelly

30 Days of Truth....

So I saw this idea on Live, Laugh, Love your Guts and thought it would be a very interesting thing to try. I have to admit I am a little bit afraid. Some of the questions will be uncomfortable. At the same time I think it will be alot cathartic. So starting tomorrow I will begin my-

30 Days of Truth


Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Wish me luck!

Until later,
Hugs,
Shelly

Kitchen redo....

Remember this post of my kitchen?

Kitchen before.


Well while I was away I made a few changes-

This is a picture of the kitchen during this remodel.

Hubster doing some cabinet painting.

This is the paint we used.

Backsplash in progress, I bought the round clear colored stones at the dollar store and put them up with tile adhesive and then filled them in with grout, really so easy! I have to give thanks and credit to Laura at Design Share, for this idea. Thank you so much Laura, I loved it in your kitchen and I love it in mine!

Finished cabinets.

Finsished backsplash.

Finished kitchen. (well almost, still need to do tiny little finish things!)
I really can not believe how easy this was, it did take time, but was really amazingly easier than I thought it would be and I love it! It brightens up my kitchen so much!

I hope you enjoy my new kitcen as much as I do!

Until later,
Hugs,
Shelly